Saturday, January 9, 2010

Goals: I've Gotta Get Out of Here!

I've been thinking a lot about my goals (ie: resolutions) from last year and have been procrastinating blogging about it because it hasn't really been clear to me what my goals for this year should be. I'm going to take it step by step and see if we can't get this figured out.

Starting with 2009's review.

On the personal side, I vowed to take better care of myself and, for the most part, I did. I stopped the trips to vendo-land (I have no idea where that horrible habit came from!) but never did start taking yoga classes. I was on a roll working out probably until mid-summer when I hit a plateau. I didn't develop a sitting meditation practice, but did manage to find moments of Zen.

I did work on purging things that I don't need and getting my work room more organized. The purging is an ongoing process and that's fine. My work room is still not what I want it to be, but there was an improvement made when I invested in shelving for the closet. Sadly, I still haven't figured out the sewing machine I got off of freecycle.

I worked very hard at overcoming the huge problem I have with worrying about things that I have no control over. I'm an expert at being prepared for miscellaneous circumstances (due to my background as a stage manager), but the problem comes when I drive myself crazy with worry. This is something that I have to stay conscious of and will continue to be an ongoing process. It's getting better, though.

So far as Athena's Armoury goes... Well, I must admit that I horribly neglected the Armoury quite a bit this past year. After I finished a major project, I decided to give my badly injured wrist a break. Well, that self imposed break ended around the time things were getting really bad at work and my nerves took precedence over anything else. Needless to say, nearly all of my goals for the Armoury fell by the wayside.

This past summer was pretty brutal with work drama (much is still lingering), but I did manage to bounce back a bit. I don't think the situation will be much improved until there are drastic changes made here (doubtful) or I leave. I'm scared as Hell to think of leaving the only career I ever knew, but if I dread it day after day is it justifiable to stay in a career I love for a job I hate?

And that brings us to 2010!
I don't know how this wasn't dreadfully obvious to me before! The one goal, and it's a big one, that I know I have to work on is getting out of my current work situation. I really think that anything else that I may want to work on would figure itself out if I were happy. Let's face it, I haven't been happy since I started this job four years ago. I made an announcement in September that I thought I figured out what I wanted to do: pursue herbalism and eventually open up a tea and herb shop. I've been doing my usual silliness of getting completely overwhelmed with the enormity of it. I need to get back on track and come up with a plan to create small, easily achievable goals each step of the way. I read the book Craft Inc. and it has a lot of helpful advice. I had a coupon, so I picked up the Craft Inc. Business Planner as a tool to help me get started.

And it begins...

5 comments: said...

YAY! I'm rooting for you to follow your bliss!

BTW, that purse is killer! I especially love that second pic peeking inside. I think it would look cool blown up to a wall print.

Andrea Paulie said...

Good luck with this years is too short to be unhappy in your work:-) xx

mermaiden said...

you have such profound clarity, and honesty with yourself. 2010 is going to be a year of transformation for you.

Shannon said...

It is easy to get swept up in the drama that goes on around us. I applaud you for recognizing that you need to seperate yourself from it, and wish you luck in the coming year!

Athena's Armoury said...

Thank you all so much for your kind comments and support!

Erin: Thanks for the compliment on the bag! It was a ton of work, but I was thrilled with how it came out and so was my customer. =)

Beady: My thoughts exactly! When I was stage managing I felt so bad for people that hated their job and now I know how it feels. Interesting turn of events.

Julie: I agree. I think this year is going to be about planning and prepping. Next year will probably action. I just have to remember to be patient with the process.

Gypsy: It's hard not to get swept up in the drama. Thanks for the well wishes!